Another Day

So here we are with a month down, and I have become a little bit more of complacent with the way things are going. Some days go a little bit more slowly than I would like. I think that it is because I am not in school, my vacation is still two weeks away, I am not working, and mostly I have just been sitting at home. Last deployment I would look at the deployment in days, however, this deployment I look at the deployment in weeks; or trash days. And then I look at it in months. 12 months is an easier pill to swallow than a 365 day pill. My kids are still adjusting. We are having about two to three wake ups in the middle of the night from each child, so I am exhausted. I will not complain, because what I do through is hard; by far yes it is hard. However, the hardest part is what my husband is going through and his soldiers. I am blessed to have my bed to sleep in every night, even with how lonely it is. I am blessed to get to hug and kiss on my kids. I am blessed to get in my car and drive to the store. These things my husband does not get to do. I do however get to deal with the constant fighting the kids do, and get to deal with the discipline (insert laughter here haha). That part I could deal without, lol.

I have been thinking about a lot lately though, about how much we do deal with on the homefront, and the resources that are there. However, I do find that most spouses do not take advantage of the resources, either because they do not know that they are there, or because they just choose not to partake in the resources. I am a guilty party in the last deployment. I felt guilty for taking part in the daycare resource, I felt guilty for leaving my children at a daycare, however this deployment I am trying to partake in the resources that are available. I have only taken my kids to daycare this deployment so far once. However, they love it and I plan to take them more often and use my free hours. We all need a break, allow ourselves to take care of ourselves, because if we are not taking care of ourselves, we are not a hundred percent giving ourselves to other including our children. I am a person and almost to a fault who will give more to other than I do myself ( I can't say no lol), and I realize I really do need to start taking care of myself! So if any army wife reads this, please either email me or comment and I will get you a list of different resources that are out there, and please make sure to take care of yourself, you will notice a huge difference in yourself, you will be so much happier; I will guarantee it!

On to another note. I am a huge five finger death punch fan. And I found this video and thought I would share! Enjoy =)