Sunday, February 14, 2010

So here it is...

I have been going back and forth about starting one of these. I start them and then never keep up on them. I find myself lately preparing for a deployment that is about 4 months out, and dealing with an out of control three year old who has me in tears nearly daily. I have been wanting to vent, express how I feel, and get feedback on different things in my life. I wanted to start a blog as well to talk about my weight loss goals and share recipes that I find are easy and healthy. There are so many things that I worry about and probably at the same time should not be worrying about but what can ya do? Deployments tend to bring out the best and worst in you, and you will notice that a deployment is knocking on an army wifes door when you talk or listen to her. She starts gearing up about how she will handle it, what she can do while he is gone, and how to move forward even though moving forward is about moving towards the deployment. You will notice she cries, gets angry, pretends its not happening, feels helpless, gets scared, but at the same time puts on a happy face and lets her husband know that she supports him and loves him all at the same time. She will let the emotions get the best of her when the kids are down for naps, and gets complete alone time. The army wife is strong for her family, and picks up the pieces when her husband is away.

Some women simply can not handle the army life, you have the cheaters and the wives who run off with the extra money and spends it all because that is how they deal with their pain. You have the ones who would rather not deal with the pain over and over with every deployment so their marriages fail. The divorce rate is about 70% in the military. It is not easy, and it takes the best of us to be that 30%. Now do not let me fool you, I do have my moments, sometimes I do fight with my husband because I find myself it is easier to fight with him because I miss him and want him home than to cry and throw a temper tantrum so to speak. In reality, there really is nothing that we can do about it. I love my husband, I loved him and knew he was the one for me from our first date. I could not imagine my life without him and he feels the same way about me (I think haha). We whether each and every storm together and somehow pull out stronger every time. Sometimes I get scared about losing him and us not making it through this army term, but I know that as long as we have love and we stay strong and positive for each other and our children that is the best that we can do. Love is simply something that just does not go away, you have to work at it everyday, and sometimes it sucks, but when you look back 5 years later (how long we are almost been married) we have made it through and we are happier than ever. We have built a family, a home(a house is what you make it), survived a deployment, field training, and other training that has taken him away from home. If we can survive that we can survive anything!!


like I was saying. This blog is a way for me to keep a sort of diary without having to write in a book, and I cant write as fast as I can type so my thoughts are here faster lol (Does that make sense?).

Looking forward to sharing more,


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